Being in love is amazing, love is one of the most powerful emotions a person can have. There is a lot of fantasy, excitement and chemistry when two people are in love. The feeling of being in love can be considered as a high and some people even say they are drunk in love.
When relationships are new, they are thrilling, intoxicating and exciting – you want to talk to the person that you are in love with all the time, see them as often as you can, everything they do is cute, and they seem to say the right things that make you smile all the time.
But some relationships don’t last or have the fairy tale ending that we may have been dreaming of and that is when the problems begin.
If you have been in a relationship that ended in a breakup then you know just how that feels; It Sucks!
If you are lucky enough to not have experienced it, you may know someone that had a break up and their whole life fell apart.
When you break up with someone you can’t eat or sleep or even breathe, it hurts. You feel like your whole world is falling apart and a whole lot of other emotions are triggered. Some people get over breakups quite quickly and while sadness and grief are common after a breakup, it is important to recognise if there are any symptoms of depression.
It is normal to grieve the loss of a relationship so that you may begin to heal, but there are healthy and also unhealthy symptoms of a breakup; knowing how to identify these can help you determine if you may be suffering from depression.
As with any loss, it is usual to have
Feelings of frustration and anger
Sadness
Crying
Shock
Denial
Loneliness
Fear
Insomnia
Loss of interest in activities
The recovery timeline varies from person to person, but your emotional state should improve bit by bit as you adjust to life without your partner.
There are ways of helping yourself feel better during this time for instance;
taking time to exercise and catch up with friends and family
understanding your own self-worth and not dwelling on the past
not jumping into another romantic relationship straight away
writing or talking about it
appreciating your own self-worth
not blaming yourself
If your feelings do not improve at all after a few weeks or they get worse, you should talk to a doctor.
If the feelings get worse, please see your doctor.
Some of the symptoms to look out for are;
Feeling worthless
Developing insomnia or sleeping too much
Loss of appetite
Compulsive eating for comfort
Loss of interest in activities once enjoyed
Feeling hopeless and blaming oneself for all the bad things
Having suicidal thoughts
Feeling empty everyday
Difficulty concentrating on general tasks and decision making
Having no energy for most of the day
Low self esteem
Feeling anxious
It is common for people to get depressed after a breakup, however some people are more at risk if they have had a previous history with depression or another mood disorder.
If depressed feelings persist they may worsen and affect a person’s quality of life, it is advisable to see a doctor when this happens. Any thoughts or talk of suicide should be taken seriously and in times of crisis one may seek help from the hospital’s emergency services.
Prayer is good, mediation helps but we can not pray away mental illnesses. While it may be comforting to ‘take our troubles to the Lord in prayer’, it is also important that we seek medical help for health conditions.
We can not pray away mental illness
There are some people that pray relentlessly for healing but not get healed. What do you think goes through those peoples minds when they do not get better after prayer? A lot of times people start to feel like failures, that they have sinned and do not deserve to get healed from their sickness.
Let us encourage loved ones that are suffering, especially with mental health conditions to seek medical help, then we can pray with them; if that is what you do and it is within their beliefs.
This morning I read that Pastor Andrew Stoecklein of Inland Hills, Chino, California had taken his life after battling depression and anxiety. He was only 30 years old, leaving behind a wife and 3 sons.
Pastor Andrew Stoecklein of Inland Hills Church took his life after battling with anxiety and depression. (Inland Hills Church)
This is not a man who didn’t know how to pray. He prayed with and for other people as well as teach. He was a leader that was looked upon as a responsible person in society and religious communities but he suffered from depression.
He probably couldn’t share what was really troubling him as everyone looked to him for answers. It can get very lonely at the top.
His church announced, “In his time leading Inland Hills, Andrew reached so many with his warm wit, passionate heart for God, and teaching that always, always pointed others to Jesus. The loving husband, father, son, and friend that he was will continue to inspire us in leading others into a growing relationship with Jesus Christ,”
Mental illness should not be considered as demonic, it is a reality. It is a dysfunction rooted in the structure of the personality and most times caused by traumatic, physical or psychological experiences or genetic imbalances. In most cases medication can help a person lead an almost normal life.
The churches need to step up and teach their congregants about mental health and the help they can get professionally. If people can seek medical help for all other illnesses they should be encouraged to do so for their mental health, then the in-house counselling can be offered. People should not be afraid to reach out when they are suffering.
Let us continue to talk about mental health and get help when we need it, for ourselves and, for our loved ones. Help is always at hand. You can make an appointment to see your GP or call NHS on 111. The Samaritans are on call on 116 123 for 24-hour confidential, non-judgemental emotional support.
Welcome to suggestion #12 on curing depression. I’ve got a word for you fellow depressors: Mindfulness. Have you heard that one lately? I don’t even social media that much since realizing it contributed an unhealthy amount to my negative self-image and my -sorry; rambling. I don’t get around much, and even I saw that word everywhere. […]
Now this is one popular saying that most of my peers will be able to relate to.
Growing up we were disciplined with the cane, a smack if you were close enough, a wooden spoon if you happened to be in the kitchen, a rubber slipper, a belt or even a punch if you misbehaved, broke rules or disrespected your parents.
That could have been anything from breaking glass, playing outside past your curfew, getting grades that were lower than your parents expected you to get, talking to boys, answering back, even interrupting grownups talking and getting low grades.
Teachers disciplined you at school and if your parents heard about it, you could get another beating from them. We had popular headmasters and teachers that were known for giving the best or ‘worst’ beatings in my opinion and some people still thank them today for the way they helped them shape their lives.
How does being beaten by someone else shape your life? In my opinion, it forces people into submission when they are with a person they regard as authority and teaches them that hitting other people is a way to deal with their anger.
Spare the rod and spoil the wife
As people get older and have their own relationships and children, they adopt the traits of their parents that you can discipline someone by laying a hand on them.
I remember my friends avoiding their older brothers if we went out because they were afraid of them. Why? Most likely because they had the parents blessing to discipline the younger siblings.
Women stick around in abusive relationships because they saw their mothers stay when their fathers beat them.
They stick around because they were beaten by their parents and often they were told it was done out of love. If they did not love them they would not bother correcting them.
When a woman feels oppressed in a marriage or and walks away from being abused, she is encouraged to talk to her elders who in turn urge her to return to her marital home and put up with it; as we all know, marriage is not easy, you adapt and get used to the person you are with and you have to stay for the sake of the children.
There are men who stay in relationships where they are emotionally and verbally abused, for the same reasons as women. It also could be that there are children involved and they do not want to be caught up in a custody battle. Sometimes they do not even realise that they are in an abusive relationship because they have been raised in a similar environment, so they just put up with it.
I befriended a young lady that lived in a flat above me with her partner a few years ago. They painted a happy picture, such a lovely couple, but almost every weekend there were cries from her flat when she was being beaten. She refused to talk about it when we met.
They eventually went separate ways but the partner was known to tell the ‘boys’ when they were at the pub that he did it to show her who was the boss. It didn’t matter if she had been good or bad in his eyes, he still hit her.
But where does one person get the authority to raise a hand to another? Could it be insecurity; that they need to control another person them to keep them in check? Could it be learned behaviour from the way they were disciplined themselves as children?
I was spanked as a kid and turned out just fine
There may be some people that say, ‘we were spanked as children but we turned out just fine’ and continue the same practice with their own children.
There is no justification for laying a hand on anyone else but sometimes one doesn’t have to touch you to hurt you. Emotional abuse is psychological, you may not see the scars but the damage is long term. Survivors of abuse can suffer from low esteem, depression, lack of self-confidence, anxiety, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), drug and alcohol abuse.
Children look up to their parents and learn behaviour’s and social norms through them. Violence is not love but we have been conditioned by parents and care givers that it is okay to be punished by the one that provides for you.
Physical discipline does not help anyone, in fact it often leads to forced submission and acceptance of abuse in later relationships as well others developing abusive tendencies towards future partners.
We all need structure and discipline in our lives but it can be instilled without the need to be physical.
Disclaimer: This article is based on my readings, feelings and experience. Please feel free to comment and share.
The Destiny’s Child singer Michelle Williams, who has previously spoken about her depression and feeling suicidal has checked into a mental health facility for treatment.
Singer Michelle Williams is seeking help for depression
It is not very easy for people of colour to talk about their feelings especially when struggling with depression. Their symptoms are usually attributed to weakness, laziness and attention seeking.
Most times, we only find out when someone has taken their own life that they have been suffering in silence. Michelle has shown immense strength in speaking out and and hopefully it will encourage other people to seek the help that they need.
The 37 year old singer confirmed on her social media pages;
There are people who will say Michelle Williams has had a great life, successful career and recently got engaged to her fiancee; what has she got to be depressed about?
But, depression is not about how much or how little you have. It is a neurological disease associated with the dysfunction of specific brain regions and not simply a consequence of a bad lifestyle and psychological weakness.
Depression brings feelings of sadness and a loss of interest in activities that one once enjoyed. It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease a person’s ability to function at work and at home.
Depression symptoms can vary from mild to severe and can include:
Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed
Changes in appetite and weight loss or gain unrelated to dieting
Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
Loss of energy or increased fatigue
Feeling worthless or guilty
Difficulty thinking, concentrating or making decisions
Thoughts of death or suicide
The stigma surrounding mental health can worsen someone’€s problems and impede their recovery. It affects their employability and social inclusion in mainstream society.
People are encouraged to talk about how they feel, but the greatest difficulty is finding who to talk to and who to trust.
Today social media is abuzz with all the support for Michelle Williams, she has done the right thing in taking time to focus on her recovery as she has been struggling for a while but; she didn’t stop encouraging others’ to take care of their mental health.
Let us continue to talk about it and get help when we need it, for ourselves and, for our loved ones. Help is always at hand. You can make an appointment to see your GP or call NHS on 111. The Samaritans are on call on 116 123 for 24-hour confidential, non-judgemental emotional support.
We are all guilty of holding on to things that we treasure; keepsakes, books, art and our children’s first drawings to name a few. Over time, these things accumulate and it can be a challenge to get rid of them.
There are people who find it easy to get rid of things that they no longer need and there are people who can not bear to part with even a piece of paper where they scribbled information which they will never need to use again.
There are different types of clutter, physical, emotional or mental, social, and digital clutter.
Physical clutter
Physical Clutter, lots of things lying around
This is the most common and visible form of what people can identify as clutter. Its the stuff that can be packed away if there is space; books can be placed on a shelf, shoes on a rack, clothes can be packed in drawers if folded or hung up in a wardrobe and toys can be put in a box.
This clutter weighs us down and causes us to be antisocial because we do not want people to come into our house and see the mess, also it becomes difficult to leave the house because one feels guilty for enjoying other things instead of tidying up but still they never get round to doing it.
It is very draining to be in such an environment as the atmosphere starts to feel very heavy and most times the person will feel fatigued before they even start, so its left for another day.
Physical clutter affects children in a negative way; children that live in messy houses are prone to health conditions due to leaving in an unhygienic place. They can’t have their friends over to play at short notice, and it also affects their attention span as their living and playing space is restricted because of all the clutter around them.
Have you ever been to someones house and there was nowhere to sit that they needed to start moving things off the settee just to make room? Or tried to help someone clean up and almost fallen out because you insisted they throw away certain things that have been in a particular place for years and never been used?
This constant holding on to possessions is what causes people to become hoarders. Not all hoarders live in squalor and smelly houses with dead animals and bad sanitation like we see on TV programmes.
Some people hold on to so much stuff because they fear that they may need it someday. The person may keep the items for reasons that are not obvious to other people, such as for sentimental reasons.
Some people may buy clothes especially in sales and not wear them but keep them in case they need them at some other time. They may have lots of dresses, bags and shoes that they do not have any space for them and end up moving them from place to place. They also tend to buy more clothes if they are going somewhere because they have so many things and they don’t know where to begin looking.
Emotional or Mental Clutter
Mental Clutter – Big Stock
Emotional or mental clutter is the clutter that we can not see. It is the thoughts that hold us back and make life hard and complicated. This may be tied to feelings of guilt over something we wanted to do but didn’t get round to doing it, regret over an unfinished course, unmet deadlines, unreached goals or people we wanted to see but couldn’t make it.
The fear of pursuing your dreams or worrying about what people will say when you do is also a form of mental clutter. It is difficult to reach your true potential when you go through those type of emotions. People end up being stuck in a rut and not being able to pursue their careers or make positive changes in their lives.
When you have mental clutter, it is difficult to experience clarity, peace and love. It occupies your thoughts and and gradually makes you believe that the negative thoughts in your mind are real. This causes insecurities and holds you back from living life to your full potential.
Social Clutter
Social Clutter – you don’t have to follow the mob
Sometimes we are in relationships that no longer add to our lives but drain us instead. We stay with the same groups of people even though we have grown apart, stick to the same routines that we get no enjoyment out of because it is the norm or trend just to fit in. Sometimes we give so much more of ourselves than we can, getting nothing in return or being mistreated and sometimes we commit ourselves to events that we do not have any desire to be in the first place because of fear.
It is hard but useful to distance yourself from negative talk and people that bring you down. Toxic relationships end up making you insecure and causing you to limit yourself from getting good opportunities.
Digital Clutter
Digital clutter
In this age of digitalisation, our mobile phones, iPads and computers have apps that we download and we think are good idea to have but never get round to using. We bookmark things that we never go back to read or delete on our computers and that creates a lot of clutter.
Some people do not check their emails or filter junk post and they get overwhelmed when they go into their emails. We take hundreds of pictures on our phones but do not delete them or move them to a memory stick and we end up scrolling through thousands of pictures while looking for just one suitable one.
It causes anxiety to realise that you have months worth of mail and you have missed payments or important correspondence because of not clearing your digital clutter.
There are many reasons that lead to people living cluttered lives. Our past events, childhood experiences, religious beliefs, cultural beliefs and traumatic events all play a part in what we do in our lives.
Some people may have suffered an illness where they find it difficult to tidy up their things or are lonely and just feel emotionally attached to certain objects as a way of comfort. After a bereavement certain stuff is kept because of its sentimental value and the feeling that if they throw away the things, they are throwing away all their memories of their loved one.
Sometimes the behaviour is adopted from parents that hoard things but most times it is the opposite, whereby if a parent was compulsive about cleanliness, a child may rebel later in life because they finally have no one to tell them what to do.
Some people were just not taught or learned the skills of maintaining a tidy environment and others struggle with depression or anxiety that causes them to lose interest in day to day activities.
There are instances where the clutter is manageable and someones surroundings can be cleared but it can also get to a point where the problem is bigger than lack of time and a person is not prepared to accept help clearing up because they are afraid that the helper may throw away their stuff.
It becomes a fire and trip hazard when someone has collected too much stuff, especially the elderly but it is important to be patient and understanding because there may be a lot of reasons why that person is behaving in that way and not rush in to throw away their stuff and cause more harm than good.
It is pointless to clear out someone’s house on their behalf because if they do not get rid of their possessions themselves they will not have participated in the decluttering so will learn nothing from it. They have to be ready and willing to make the change and they should not be encouraged to put things in storage either because they will continue accumulating things and end up being worse off.
Earlier today the news emerged that designer Kate Spade had taken her own life, leaving a 13 year old daughter and husband.
A child has lost a mother, a husband has lost a wife, irrespective of their marital problems.
Rest in peace Kate Spade
Suicide is a choice they say.. But is it?
People that die of suicide will not be thinking straight at their time of death, their mental illnesses cause them to reach that point.
It is evident she was not in a happy place because she would not have ended her life and left a teenage child without a mother.
No matter what she wrote on her suicide note, the reasons are never going to be explanation enough to her family and those closest to her.
There are so many questions left unasked and unanswered. There will be so many stories that will emerge, some sympathetic, some; not so much.
No one knows what she was feeling during her last days for her to end her life the way she did.
One does not simply choose to die as though they are deciding what to make for dinner… “err, actually, I think I will die now”.
There are so many factors that cause someone to sink to a certain low, feel worthless and no matter how much they try, they feel that they are better off dead.
People who are affected by mental health disorders are more likely to commit suicide. Sometimes it is known before a persons death but sometimes it is known after.
Depression, bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are the most common mental health disorders that contribute to suicide.
When a person is so overwhelmed by feelings of sadness and worthlessness they often think that they have no other option and start contemplating suicide.
It is hard to know how someone is feeling but there are usually tell tale signs that can indicate that they are depressed or have suicidal tendencies for instance ;
Avoiding social situations.
Feeling hopeless and helpless.
Exhibiting feelings of strong anger or rage.
Experiencing dramatic mood changes.
Abusing drugs or alcohol and self harming.
Exhibiting changes in personality.
Constant talk or writing about death or suicide.
It is important to watch out for theses signs and take action to enable someone to get the help that they need and possibly prevent a tragic suicide attempt or death.
The stigma surrounding mental health and suicide makes them taboo subjects to talk about. Most people that have suicidal thoughts do not want to burden anyone with their problems so they do not reach out for fear of being judged and accused of attention seeking.
Staying silent isn’t being strong, speaking out is. Let’s stop the stigma!
Over the last few months I have gained a significant amount of weight but nothing could have prepared me for the challenges of being a big girl in a vain world.
Its bad enough shopping for clothes or squeezing myself into control pants and almost fainting from the pressure while I drive, then to bump into someone that says, ‘Gosh you have gained so much weight!’.
Me at the African Women’s Dinner 2018
How about hello, how are you?
I know I have gained weight; that cutting of my spanks reminds me of it every second that I am standing with you and dying to take it off.
Generally people are not kind to overweight people, they have been conditioned to resent people when they are overweight because there is a misconception that those people are irresponsible, they over eat and don’t look after themselves.
But weight gain is not only about eating, an imbalance in hormones can make it difficult for you to lose weight even if your are eating healthy.
Hormones control inflammation, metabolism and uptake of glucose in the body which plays a big part in weight gain. (these will be addressed in another post)
Women tend to suffer from more stress which impacts on their well being by releasing much higher levels of stress hormones. When women suffer from depression, instead of reducing sleep and the amounts they eat, they start to eat and sleep more, increasing their carbohydrate intake which results in significant weight gain.
The more weight they put on, the more guilty they become.
They become helpless, feel like failures and turn to food for comfort which leads to more weight gain.
There are so many challenges that come with being “the big girl” or boy.
A lot of overweight people pretend to be happy about their weight when they are in public, they can be the life and soul of the party but suffer when they are on their own.
People think you eat too much and even when you are hungry, you are mindful of being watched when you eat because people do comment “ahh all that food, no wonder why you put on weight”.
Where I come from, weight gain is linked to having a good life. It is assumed that you eat well and have spare cash to help other people so no one will understand you may be having health problems.
Some people are on medications that cause them to gain weight. Certain steroids and antidepressants cause weight gain. Recovery from drug and alcohol addiction comes with weight gain.
People tend to watch what they say when they come across someone that has lost a lot of weight than one that has gained weight. It is important to be mindful of what we say to each other, big, small, tall or short.
Not all illnesses are visible, be patient and kind always.
